I'm originally
from Nigeria, but grew up here in GEORGIA since
the
age of 2 or 3. I grew up in the small southern town of
FORT VALLEY,
Georgia....... PEACH COUNTY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS
OF '1984....
and the son of a COLLEGE PROFESSOR.
I first attended "IOWA STATE
UNIVERSITY" in Ames, Iowa [1984-1987] as
an
Electrical Engineering and Computer Science major.
Later when my father refused to fund my
continued education any further. I dropped out and
moved to the Maryland,
Washington D.C., Virginia area where I worked to pay
off an a student loan
which I had taken out from "Iowa State
University" to continue my education
with.
In the process of working, I burned myself out
physically and down to a
pulp where I couldn't even function from day to day. I
was later diagnosed
with depression and schizophrenia for which I have
been taking medication
ever since until today. As the saying goes, a man's
got to know his
limitations and I had to learn that the hard way
unfortunately but life goes on.
In 1989 I moved
back to Georgia, and after paying off my initial
student loan, transferred to "SOUTHERN
POLYTECHNIC STATE UNIVERSITY"
in Marietta, Georgia... (now KENNESAW STATE
UNIVERSITY)... where I pursued a degree in
"Computer Science" and "Electrical
Engineering"....
I dropped out in
1997 and later transferred to "DEVRY
UNIVERSITY " in Decatur, Georgia
in 2006 where I completed a degree in
"Computer Science" and "Technical
Management" in 2007.
I am currently on Social Security
Disability - on and off - since 1990 to current.
.....I am both Multi-lingual and
Multi-talented....
58 years old, black male, 5'11", about 200 lbs,
salt and pepper hair with strands of
white/gray here and there, a self-described Computer
Hacker, and slightly nerdy....
I am Slim build and can still pass for a High School
student sometimes, and yes I do get
"CARDED".
Believe it or not i am a "Senior Citizen" now and have
been for a few years so far and I have to keep
reminding myself to act and live my age because
it is really sinking in mentally because i never gave
it any thought before until i saw my age...
Y E S, I
U S E T O
D R I V E A
"Z" -
A N I S S A
N 3 0 0 Z X
E M P L O Y M E N T
- H I S T O R Y
Computer Programmer, Computer
Operator, PC Technician,
My resume is available in a separate part of my
webpage as well as occupational
info, and other information about myself.
I N T E R E S T S
I like New Age stuff, Reiki, movies, Mp3's, Sy-Fy,
gadgets, electronics,
exotic cars, sports cars, and in my spare time, and as
a hobby, I build, repair,
and upgrade computers and laptops - as well as
tinkering with various types of
Electronic Gadgets here and there, network projects
and some home improvement.
For those of you wondering about
my personal life,
The "Powers That Be" said i did something wrong
--- sure if they say so ---
so i don't mind going home to an Older woman at all
I think i've more than paid for my sins by now
Human nature saids you're only attracted to someone
who accepts you, not someone who is mean to you
i only have eyes for an Older Woman -
A "Real Wilma" for those of you who understand what
the term means....in an older woman or sbbw...
White, foreign...Asian, indian, korean, etc -
female Older mature granny
Sbbw, or sugar mamma - who can tolerate or put
up with me i guess -
i'm just old fashion that's all, i'm used to dating older
women and grannies - i do not chase any more,
my chasing days are over, you must make the first
move otherwise i don't know you are there.
And no, I usually will never never approach you that
way - or jump on you -
respect, respect, respect goes a long long way and
also you have be a gentleman - yes yes yes -
they can even seduce like an older woman does...
yes, yes, just that simple - like an older woman
picking up a younger man today -
that's really all i understand - especially when you
reach out with you hand - and let me know you want
me to approach -
that's just the old fashion way for those whose who
have been around the block before - that's the old
way you take someone home or pick someone up
-
it's just understood body language - it's either a yes
or no, no questions asked and you approach or walk
away if it's not what you wanted - Only real adults
play this way - no children permitted - i'm not here to
train or teach or take care of anyone -
i usually know what that means but anything else is
really just a usual tease to me - and i don't have time
to question anything, so you have to come correctly or
else i don't respond at all -
yes, i've had younger fast ladies before but no - i'm
not going to run or chase after you, i'll just walk away
from you at that time -
i've even stayed late a couple of times before when
they hinted it was getting late but no invite or
invitation to stay or join them in another room or even
move closer to them -
so it was very easily understood - and i would just
proceed to leave and no - they usually wouldn't stop
you - there's only one way to come correctly,
otherwise i'm walking away - if you were really true,
try try again -
no golddiggers please, i can see you coming a mile
away -
Anyway, i'm able to scratch your ITCH or a particular
one and maybe others as well and it only took me one
try to verify the first time thru that i did get it get it
right -
i knew I could do it because I experienced it once with
my last girlfriend when were intimate with her eyes
closed in a state of estacy exclaiming - while in each
others arms - right there right there honey - and kept
saying those words - that can only mean one
thing - i could actually satisfy someone or had been
the whole time thru and she had been lying to me and
that was
just before she went into the hospital - never to be
together again that way - spirit doesn't lie -
- it had to finally come out -
and before or after that moment at a point of dispair
she closed her eyes and looked up and held my tool
and yes the magic moment did happen - so why did
she have to keep me for 20 years while seeing other
people at the same time without my knowledge -
i only visited her and any of my past girlfriends - weeks
at time - and yes - she was an older woman -
in all that time, i only remember bringing a woman
home maybe twice and actually being intimate out of
all those relationships.
most of all my girlfriends never came home with me or
knew where i lived - sometimes i made it a Surprise -
But it would always be their place -
i never brought my last girlfriend home either but a
couple of random hotel visits or her place as usual and
was planning to bring her home finally as a Surprise
but she denied my last gifts
- she said she wanted something different - which i
said I couldn't afford -
and Yes. - I walked away again - like usual - I didn't
Complain Argue or Fight - i let another guy take her -
and Yes a few motel stays and what a Surprise when i
actually brought one home - different attitude but too
late - I already knew - because i did wine and dine
already back then when i was able to -
So like the other women before my last - mostly
BLACK -
who just looked at
me and said - CHILD SUPPORT - no questions asked
and that was it - it was over before it started -
wouldn't even touch or approach me - Denied me on
the
spot - so no I've never been BLACK or anything else
- So it's not at all like BBC - nothing close - so no
worries -
i don't give any pain, not even a scar to remember but
pure pleasure that you do remember during the
different type of treatment(s)
- you only fight the treatment because it feels that
good
could be considered a form of INTIMACY or FOREPLAY
similar to what most of you never experienced before
- REIKI is love - Hands of light - Hands of love -
- i just may even be able to stop your running -
and other problems or issues -
- would finally be a relief for you wouldn't it ??
you would finally be able to leave your house again
and not be tied to your stool among other things
No guarantees at all of course and results may not be
immediate - if any at all -
Sometimes, may even be -
- PERMANENT -
For those interested you know how to reach me -
i might add in conclusion, my same hands that
provide the LIGHTNING to others also gives me
permanent
relief when i stroke my own self and require no
additional attention whatsoever.
No, i don't have to ever go anyway else to get relief.
or ever require a female companion.
i have no worries to content with, yes this is the life.
In the end, the urge TOTALLY - disappears -
and cures many other diseases as well, yes, yes, yes -
and yes diagnosed with an "Enlarged Prostate" -
over a year ago now -
also non-existant now -
hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
it was just my Magic Hands of REIKI-
How long does it really really take
on top if you were only Interested in something else ??
And you know that's probably the
last time you'll
ever ever get to see that pretty lady's face because
she probably doesn't ever ever want to see you or your
face again - She nailed you and she got what she
came for - and going to get paid -
I never made or left a baby
anywhere past and present - you know the government
would never ever let you walk or get away with
something like that -
Maybe that's really what first
impressions are really all about and if you really wanted
someone and really gave them a
chance the whole darn time or was it just a lie and or a
joke to shame someone - so none of it really ever
happened ???
you know the government will
always have the last word with a paternity test and you
know what follows -
yes yes yes verified and forced
payments for child support-
----hallelujah---hallelujah---hallelujah
and yes everyone will know and can find out -
no I don't have to pay for someone
else's baby or one that doesn't even exist -
I can hold my own -
and no I still don't pay any child support at all at all at
all -
But on occasions i have taken care of someone elses
child before, a couple of times actually so i know what
it's like and i know what child support means - so you
don't have to teach me -
that stunning gorgeous pretty lady
wasn't worth all of this pain and suffering and running
the whole darn time was she ??
she has probably just moved on to
the next guy and the next - that's probably the only
thing she ever does - and always gets handsomely
rewarded -
so if a pretty smiling lady meets
you and leaves you very quickly and never returns your
calls you
probably know why- especially if she sends or gives
you your note or things back - it's pretty obvious -
Just keep walking away, you'll
live - I promise you -
they say there really really really is
someone for everyone so never ever have to settle for
what someone gives you or leftovers from a party -
Just keep walking - someone
may actually find you and hide you away forever -
Most of my life I've been labeled as
gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy, unwanted,
outcast, etc. and so forth and carry an
invisible woman's purse for
everyone to see. All you have to do is mention my
name or show my picture and
everyone knew who i was - oh !!
That's that guy !! - I'm probably pretty famous by now
- the one that took the
shame and all the crap and still
refused to impregnate anyone and pay their precious
child support and be led
by a woman by dog collar or collar
and chain especially a black woman who will put you
down no matter who
you are - I wouldn't play their game
and be black. Even my fellow Nigerian's disowned
and ridiculed me
saying that I didn't identify as one of
their kind. I was basically a nobody or trash and
didn't mind being that at all
as opposed to yielding - I
already have one dog collar on me and more would be
company - hahahaha
besides they need someone to
make an example of - A willing scapegoat or fall guy
is hard to find in these
times - The show must go on
people !!!! Show us your tickets at the door -
nobody will teach me so this is how
I learn - Otherwise they want me to beg beg beg for
sex like an animal -
I explore reiki with my hands as well
as using it to stimulate instead of oral - Started out as
research - I am a Reiki Master -
and yes i do use my fingers to see how you feel down
there and make up for oral just like other guys do.
but women have actually turned me away before they
saw how it felt. They pointed to the door and said
don't pick up anyone on the way home, and laughed at
me - yeah, i've been there before and that was just
barely first base - it was already over before it began
and i went home early - another one bit the dust -
no i wasn't really BLACK like what they were used too
nor do i ever plan to be - I'm not from around here -
- yes I have a few health problems
and a older mature granny is the best that I can do -
i specifically have a speech problem or impediment
among other things and i've had it all thru life and
growing up and even now it has gone noticed by
medical professionals except for a few instances by
friends and relatives -
i look, act and speak normal most of the time -
i'm also impotent and there are many different types
of that condition as well for those of you not aware
and
that too could go undetected -
many many more health problems, guess i'm pretty
loaded with them -
in my whole life I never knew what
luck or a 2nd chance was even if it hit me right in the
face, and yes I lived a very sheltered life -
and still considered to do so, so I
still keep doing the same darn thing and same
mistakes as you call them -
nothing else to do what common
sense and logic tells me - as I observe in everyday
life - thats all I've ever known
from those who actually made it or
made it to the top - or still alive at least -
A very very sheltered life indeed, I
remember raiding the local garbage dumpster
scavenging for electronics discarded by our
seemingly rich or well to do
neighborhoods - yes our toys came from there and
mine still come from almost the same place
today - discount places and
bargain basements - They said we were rich but
actually grew up very poor or like the poor -
in the end i have to add, i was an abused child and
yes those memories are slowly coming back - i
remember having to step up to the plate hoping that
i would take the brunt of the punishment so my
other brothers and sister would get off easy -
sometimes i was actually the only one that would
get punished almond like someone had something
against me - i guess you know where i got my
speech problem after constantly being beaten to
an inch of my life.
i would always be wondering
when the abuse would end, all the way thru high
school i think its probably when it would come to an
end or just subside.
Guess now you can
understand why i don't talk after growing up with that
kind of life and my father constantly promising
to help me with my speech problem after being the
actual cause of it.
i speak only because i had to speak going thru
school as i was growing up and even then there was
always some type of hesitation as i stood up in class
facing everyone.
i did make it thru and almost no one had a clue
but some of my insructors wanted me to follow in
my father's footsteps but i would kindly grin and
said it wasn't for me.
his college education was mostly in psychology
and he used that to control his family so you could
almost imagine what he was like -
after high school i was ready to get as far away
from there as possible, even if it meant the other
side of the world.
yes, this was my "Coming to America" - yes it was..
and i guess those memories were buried for a reason.
so when i said we lived like we were poor, now you
can see exactly why - almost like prisoners of war - by
i should have turned long long time ago after living
thru something like that or not even supposed to be
alive today - many many times -
Almost 18+ years of living hell and then the
remainder of my adult life, and then a pretty lady
suddenly wants to have my child - ?
HELL - NO - !!! after all my pain and suffering - I'm
never going to take care of anyone else but myself -
Even a fool, trans gay, faggot, trans, queer, ugly, sissy,
unwanted, outcast, etc.
have learned their lesson quite well by then -
hope you can see why i'll be popping pills for the
rest of my remaining life just from the voices that i
used to hear if nothing else -
Yes i remember the incidents very well from my days
of dating when i was called every profanity under the
sun - when they exclaimed - you are looking for
what ??? - or the famous quote - you are ugly -
yep - and only offered child support instead - or
ended the standoff -
yes, a lot of women did walk away from me during
those instances and i'm glad they did - story of my
life -
So when the moment comes and I get a no no because
my equipment is either too short or too small or just
plain inadequate - only good enough for child support
- that's my cue to walk away again -
No hard feelings - not my first rodeo - so I guess I'm
not good enough to handle any kind of woman at all
without having to pay
- point well taken - now everyone knows what
I can handle and to stay far away
Now I don't have to worry about taking care of anyone
else but myself and spending my money on just me -
don't have to keep blowing it on someone else and
believing in fairy tales.
Such a joyous ending since I already figured that out
which I why I just kept walking away -
I just play my part and walk away, or the other
outcome where they look away, or look down or just
cough, telling me I'm just too ugly, I get the same
message after 40+ year, and I should have built a little
resistance by now, still playing the part and walking
away -
Don't know what I supposed to feel anymore but I still
recognize the same cue's from the females which
never changes so there's nothing new to learn -
I got the message loud and clear, it's just a show and I
just keep playing the same part, nothing hard about
that, and just waiting for my time to come like
everyone
else as long as it takes - No I don't believe in fairy
tales, why would I both after having a life that's been
forever ruined with no hope whatsoever.
I know the difference between reality and dreaming,
and what's actually possible -
A peaceful and graceful end it will be, why would I
complain - I was actually enjoying it -
But then i get looks of disgust and disappointment,
isn't this what everyone wanted - for me to put on a
this same particular show
everytime - falling back on a sofa or chair mouth wide
open gagging or choking on something with someone
on top of me - while everyone applauds - sorry but I
didn't get the joke - am I doing something wrong ? -
I'm just playing the part you asked me to play - maybe
when it's all over I might just actually understand - but
until then as the traveler would say - I'm just passing
thru - just passing thru - just passing thru
Believe me, nobody cares what you do behind closed
doors in the comfort of your own home - but paying
child
support payments for 18 years are a whole nother
story compared to the price of a simple "Rain Coat" !!!
Yes - Yes - You have to pay the magical "Child
Support" for 18 long - long - Years !!!!
That's why it's so magical and Women love it !!!!
They actually get "PAID" !!!! -
And if you don't pay - You can go straight to jail and
don't stop to collect $200 -
Until you can Pay Pay Pay !!!!
??? Capeesh ???
. The magic behind ""Child Support" -
No thanks, i'll pass and keep walking away -
- That's one magic trick i'll try never never never try
to perform -
Trust me I'm not afraid to wear a "Rain Coat" -
One of my Co-worker back in MARYLAND where i use
to work In the late 80's
pull me off to the side and gave me that piece of
advice and i knew exactly what he meant -
- He was a BLACK guy but Everyone would say
he
had - JESUS - in his eyes -
??? if you know what that meant ???
- And yes, you could tell a part of him was
DIFFERENT -
For those of you who don't fully understand the
picture: Any man, whether "Straight", "Gay", "Bi", or
whatever orientation they are can
make a "BABY", but it doesn't make you any
"STRAIGHTER" than anybody
else, nor does it get you anymore respect than you
would normally have-
They just made a "BABY" and that's all it is to them,
other than the
fact that they will be taking care of that "BABY" for
the next 18 years
- one way or another...in the form of "CHILD-
SUPPORT".
So, before you get up to the "Altar" and say "I DO",
you better make
sure you aren't doing it because of any of the above
reasons - because
there's no reward down the road. If somebody saids
the "BABY IS YOURS" or "I LOVE YOU"
- verify it with a test. If you still want to say "I DO",
then consider
a "PRE-NUPTIAL WEDDING AGREEMENT" in case
you are "WRONG" -
There's no shame in accepting what and who you
know you are, rather
than what others would like you to think you
are -
- The bottom line secret is that a BABY is made out
of pure fear for a - G A Y - M A N - that's it - either
the male and/or female "finally" has an orgasm out of
fear of death or something else or their partner
causing them bodily harm or something else and the
woman suddenly gets pregnant -
You know you never hear from that poor woman again
because now she has a label just like the rest of us
welcome home, welcome home, is someone loving
you ?
i've met a few of them and never knew why they kept a
low profile, small world indeed - i feel your pain - and
i don't mind if need someone to share it with -
now you know who i am - am i not good enough for
you compared to person who did this to you ???
One of my WHITE bosses in the mid 90's told me the
same thing in so many words about a couple that he
knew - that the woman would finally get pregnant out
of just plain fear -
--- Psychology - MOTHER - NATURE - always finds a
way - Psychology ---
i have male indian friend who asked me for a screw
driver once and knew you could just buy one at the
store.
Anyway, many years later after he moved to another
house i rode with him in his car and right before we got
to his house - he passed gas in the car - and basically
went nuts.... he turned red and slammed down the
accelerator pedal. we were at his house in seconds...
.... usually when you do this, you say excuse me and
say roll down the windows and we laugh about it...
We got to his house and we were out of his car and in
the house. He walked to the bathroom and pointed
at the door hinting that I needed to use the
bathroom like he was commanding me or something
and just kept pointing at the bathroom door.
Sure, i went in and urinated and came right back
out and the guy was gone...
Months later he now works out of the basement and
keeps asking me to come over fix something and
then his indian wife would call as well to get his home
camera system fixed...
After several visits i just quit going over since he just
likes cheating people and has robbed me of things
before by substituting the wrong items for me to take
as payment which were basically worthless or antique.
i haven't seen the guy in months except taking me
out gor pizza and disappearing for hours
i waited for him sitting in the pizza parlor with a crowd
of people. i went outside from time to time and
walked around thinking maybe he was in the
somewhere on his phone.
I finally just sat down and waited...and he eventually
showed up with no explanation and paid for the pizza
and we went back to his house where his wife, kids
and parents were. We ate pizza and then i drove
home.
Haven't seen that guy in many months and he is
Always asking me to come over and I always know he
and his family wants free computer work done as
usual which usually takes 4 or 5 hours....
just an example of someone who doesn't think you
know as well as his family.
American black women are famous for this type of
behavior by threatening men with child support.
it has been going on for as long as i've been living
and i've talked to some of them on the phone who
were cheating on their soon to be mates from out of
the country in this same matter by hiding their mail,
green cards, etc - in hopes of forcing them into child
support.
i listened as they were laughing about it on their end -
yes, this actually happened and it was eye opening -
so be careful who you date or associate with because
it could actually end up costing you - avoid these
type of women like the plague because after all these
years they still have not changed -
They appear to have a monopoly on this type of
behavior.... and yes i've dated a few of them and lived
to tell about it -
Even my first girlfriend, an older black woman with a
husband working out of town tried to pull the same
stunt back in 1989-90 or so
Never told me they were still together, and we
actually dated for several years - yep - first girlfriend
ever and first close call -
A little birdie told me after all these years, i never had
a clue - or reason to doubt her -
She left an identifying mark on me the whole time we
were together just like my last girlfriend (she was
even white) did also
as i found out when she bragged about it in front
of me at the rehab center where i visited her every
month - saying - i was never going to leave her or find
anyone else - and said i was cheating on her -
Been about 7 years or so since we've been apart at
that time just months ago - and nope - no one else -
and the nurses there would "TEASE" me about
visitation rights just like a prison - and laugh - yep..
mostly all black American women -
Her sister called a few weeks later and said she had
passed after being in a rehab center and that i should
come and see her $1500 urn that was supposedly
made of GOLD -
I started to go several times but just didn't feel right
since my health was not that good.
One time or maybe the last time her sister called, we
talked a little while and suddenly i heard my
presumed decease girlfriend in the background
yelling "DEVIL - DEVIL - DEVIL" - repeatedly -
and the sister started calling her name and yelling as
well - soon there was a click and the sister hung up
the phone - i was laughing myself - my presumed
dead girlfriend was alive and just got turned and was
taken by the devil - just months ago - lol - lol -
I should add that her and her recently deceased
brother had a really special relationship but her
sister as well but seemed the only one who
would occasionally say No and not get involved
leaving things between my girlfriend and her brother.
Guess i just interrupted something and finally one
night after watching tv there and turning out the
lights and i was showing myself out and my girlfriend
said no, this way, pointing to her room and i started
staying over, which is why i guess i was
there with them unknowingly 20 years or so.
i knew there was some reason the brother would
keep staring and never left the house.
Before my girlfriend supposedly got sick both her and
her sister sat down in front of tv with me once and
discussed their sex lives in front of me since her sister
were was always interrupting us when we were in bed
together.. just opened the door and looked right in...
saying she wanted me to take her to the store...
On occasion i did actually take her to the store and
she flipped up her dressed at least once....and
wearing nothing much underneath and laughing of
course...
Anyway, my girlfriend had a big smile on her face as
i looked back and forth between the 2 of them and
the sister was angry and wanted to join in pretty much
since they shared their men - and my girlfriend
agreed and let her speak while we were in the room
together -
Nothing happened since my girlfriend got sick and
ended up in the hospital and rehab not too long
afterwards -
i then overheard that my girlfriend had finally given
the sister permission to be with me since I hadn't
made a move...and it only took a few phone calls to
figure it out since the sister finally started answering
the phone for my girlfriend -
Anyway, before all of this when she first moved there
after she got out of prison and i gave her a ride to her
new home taking care of a disabled lady.
i drove up one day and she was making cake and
ice cream for the local taxi drive who was a black
fellow she told me about.
she was mesmerized by his equipment so had to
get a taste and see what it was like.
They were actually involved for years since i lived
out of town from her and she failed to mention this
of course.
Probably still dating the same guy now so once
again i was just extra extra extra - she just needed
someone to use like always - never good enough the
whole time and couldn't compete -
So who was actually cheating and who was true ?
There are other stories there which is why I eventually
left but im not saying anything else -
i had other prior relationships where both sisters
or mothers and daughters propositioned me so this
wasn't the first time or my first rodeo -
Especially a different one that kept asking me, if it
was cold ?, one 2 different occasions and yes we
were alone and this was a girlfriend's sister -
Of course different mother's and daughter's as well
,that's all i'll say -
Also had an older black woman who was one of my
computer clients who had an older adult son who
was sick and live out of town. She would tease me
all the time when i was there swinging her thing back
and forth and giggling but of course i just did my job.
One day and maybe another time she had me to
pump her clogged toilet stool and even asked if it
was fixed when i was done and paid me $100 for my
time.
She called me several months back and i guess she
wanted the same thing done again, not the first time
i fixed somebody's toilet since i grew up in the
country and we usually learn to fix our own things.
People always surprised for some reason when i fix
their broken toilets and other things, i just never got
it but glad i could be of assistance..
We had no money and so we fix things ourself in the
country where i grew up. We learned from our
parents instead of going out to play with the other
kids in the neighborhood.
There are many ways to get TURNED - this was one
of them - there's a section about my personal
spiritual experiences in another part of my website -
Actually met my first girlfriend on an internet swingers
site back then so i thought it was safe -
Yep, she taught me quite a bit but then decided to
take me for a ride that i would never forget -
She ended dying in her sleep from a "heart attack" -
but i wasnt there though - one of her children found
her the next morning before i called her -
And yes, i was the one that took care of both of their
kids - as well as others -
and here i am today, still walking away -
so in the end, I still don't believe in fairy tales unless
you can actually prove yourself to me -
i will never never ever delude myself or believe in a
dream -
even then, nothing is ever ever guaranteed and you
know that as well - so watch where you step -
because this could still just end up being a simple
meet and greet - nothing more - story of my life
as well - which is why I never mind leaving empty
handed - or going home alone -
---you know people may start talking if they catch us
together since I don't mind being out in public -
so the ball will always be in your court if you can
actually take the heat and still concentrate on me -
---some things you just learn to get use to -
....that's the kind of life I learned to accept -
where everything is either forbidden or out of reach -
- i only believe in what is real or could be real -
respectable means just that, something you just can't
fake - even if you someone else already made a name
for you or you have one yourself -
For those wanting to reach me, email addresses and
contact links are off the main page of my website that
saids
I'm originally
from Nigeria, but grew up here in GEORGIA since
the
